最近手提电脑有问题，又可以用回了。选择性在今晚回到以往敲着键盘打字的日子。
真心的感谢创作发明 部落格的人。
最近心烦事太多。我需要找个人聊。可是对象已不是以往的朋友。毕竟时过境迁，身边的朋友不断交替交换，这是已料的事。我也不需要牵强自己，勉强挤进别人的缝隙里，做个额外的陪伴客。开学两个星期了。不看开也得看开。尝试去接受新事物，不过毕竟怎么说也不是原本习惯的，因此似乎有一道隔墙，怎样都进不了的隔墙。

他是个很好的朋友。可算是我在XJ家庭里交的第二个知己。我们从前年PXY说到了去年的PXY，终于同组。无可否认他是个领导能力很强的孩子，而我止不过是习惯领导的孩子。PXY里大大小小的事都有他的帮助，董卓组方可获得最佳组别。而这令我我一直很感激他。虽然朋友很多，真正能够谈心的，以前有，现在没了。

刚才与这友人谈了许久，也发现其实我们也都是同道中人。大家岂不是也面对一样的问题。我只不过不想当个外人，毕竟以前我们看他是外人，而现在演变成他们看我是外人。其实也没关系，友人说熬过今年就OK了。相较起来，我的情形会比他悲惨因为他在学校至少有我的干妹是真心对他的。而我呢。看似有，其实根本就是个空的躯壳。

我很不爽啊很不爽。好几次都要说出来了呢。可是又何必。忍一忍两个星期不都过去了。
一个人没什么不好。
没朋友没什么不好。

你们都不曾眷顾人家的心。
你们都不懂。
睡了。
 

just nothing

Whoa, such a long time didn't update this blog already xD miss you arr :P
i'm busy what...hehe.
well, form 2's life seems more busy than i imagine when i'm in form 1.
nothing more to describe about the life that i'm having recently.
oh yeah, i suddenly memorize about the movies that i watch last few years ( when i'm in primary school)
hmm.like erm, the lion king, narnia and of course many more...
LOVE that xD

We got new hopes in a new year.
trying to get A's for all subject. =)
although i know it's very difficult...
I think that i become more NAUGHTY AND CHICKY this year.
hehehe *evil laughing.

what i can say is just,
I HATE TUITION!!!!
if can, i want to create a group which is named as ----ANTI-TUITION
lol, but i can't :PP

tomorrow is holiday, yeah!!!
it's thaipusam but also chap go meh for chinese.
last day for chinese new year =)
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i got lots and lots of problems you know :'(
frankly speaking, sometimes i will cry alone in my room thinking about those problems.
urgh, i hate that :(
i'll never get to forget those things.
why every bad thing must happen on me?
it's unfair larh.

*crying..........

okay stop.
don't want to mention about those sad things dy...
exam is just around the corner.
few weeks for me to ready for me only LOL
try my best larh.
Go! Go! Go!

football match? -,-

=.= My fb homepage is all full with the status wrote
"Malaysia menang!"
"We are the champion!"
LOL LOL LOL
yet, i don't even know anything -,-
is it a football match? perhaps. because i saw they wrote "GOAL!"
and erm, Malaysia won?
ouh okay, at least i knew Malaysia won.
Should be proud of our country :D
what the team haa?
i saw like got tiger one.
don't know what harimau lah ==
aah, whatever~
janji i'm not katak di bawah tempurung :P

Blaming

It's 12.07 midnight and I haven't get to bed yet.
Mood quite DOWN.
Why? Why they have to do me like this?
I hate adults!!!
If what they didn't want to take responsible of that, they will just say to you a word, NO!
So what huh? No one is going to help me right?
It's okay. I'll find a way to talk to you all. Just WAIT AND SEE.
What makes me feel frustrated is, erm,
THEM!
I also wish that I have a perfect XXXXXX *blanking
So you just left me here without saying a word?
Just have your happy life and what?
Going overseas, taking pictures, and many more.
Hah! I'm such a pity?!
Maybe, this is fact.
Maybe, I should not blame anyone.
Maybe, I have to accept it.
I've been born in a wrong family!

sweet memories 2011

Tahdadada~~~~

It's holiday now!
6 weeks..........such a long time :(
LOL LOL LOL
I wish to go school :DDD
Hmm.....
Well, a few things happen in this week actually. :P
First of all,
hehe. jangan ckap rouyee sombong nah ><
i've been chosen to be PENGAWAS BARU for next year :P
alaaa, nothing to be proud actually, just erm, something like, UNEXPECTED?
I don't know~
now only i realized that when i first come to derma, even though i already study there for maybe half a year, but i didn't know many people yet, i mean friends. of course, chinese sure we know all. but unexpectedly, when time came longer, about september like that lah, begin to know many friends =) i mean malay friends. hey, i love them you know? haha, they are much better than chinese. *to chinese, sorry, i don't really mean it

hmmm...friends, aiyoo, feel like majority is form 3 ? haha.
let me make some introducing for them :D * they won't see it, i know =)
zahier! :P
my adik! he's quite funny. if i got problems, sure i'll find him. he's optimistic? haha, and always say about his wife. he is also the only one knows that who i MINAT >< haha
kak syaza!
she's sweet you know? i like her. quite admire her actually. she is also a pro---- in playing violin :P
anif!
my daddy^_^ after his pmr, didn't much contact with him already. haha, he's a good man actually.  heard that he's going to transfer to kl ? gotta miss him xD
pei san jie2!
i love her!she's COOL sometimes. haha, she share her secrets with me, i also share my secrets with her. haha
 =) my lovely senior
ashraf
not really kenal him actually. but he's quite okay lah. haha.
farhani, fatihah, ain, wani and so on....
they are my best friends too. we become better friends since june? hmmm...i think is june kott. they're all so sweet. :')
sari and athirah
they're beautiful girls haha~ well, not very good friends . hopefully next year we'll be more good huh? xP

there are still many sweet friends lah.
Friends are the one will help you when you need help. They may not be helping you in fact, but they'll help you in sorts of mental? haha. like erm, being optimistic? bla bla bla~and so on. but the conclusion is, FRIENDS ARE ALWAYS IMPORTANT! 

Soon and sooner, my form 2's life is approaching. Sounds difficult for me :( Haha, no worries, i'll take it as a challenge. Take it easy so you can go easier right? I'm going to work harder for my sejarah. have to read start from now in case next year got  no time to read :'PPP two more years....i think not, one and a more year, then i have to face in PMR. gosh....haha, better then form 2 lah, they just got one more 3/4 year.haha

That's all. chaiyokkk rouyee!

Moodily

It's such a bad day.
Well, i don't know how to describe my mood recently.
i dont want to have holiday. really ----------
sometimes i really hate holidays.
boring!
nothing to do.
and....internet is cut !!!
argh. couldn't do anything.
T.T
 I'm such a pity huh?
now...
i finally understand.
being prefect isn't an excited thing at all.
being jealous by people?
god.
never felt so down before.
very sad actually :(
frustrated?
hmm. yup
this word can bestly describe my mood now.
SAD SAD SAD!
 I'm moody now :(

Boo. your broken english+ refreshing mind

Don't know why suddenly i will think about you -.- i think something in my brain had got wrong. But nevermind, all i think is bad things about you =) I doesn't like you, you doesn't like me too, isn't it fair? The one who i mention is not him actually, is his sister. Actually is the same, because they're in the same family what. Okay, even though you all are in the rich family, owned a big house or get many things that you wish to have, but doesn't mean that you all are good in everything. especially......ENGLISH! I never saw someone that is already 19++ years old still can write broken English -,- And you had stay at kampar, often go to kl and even studying at THE ONE ACADEMY in penang. sorry, i'm not teasing you actually, because maybe we are enemy, and i may be saying your shorts. :P give you an example, "i have back laa..but my dad fetch me at night.. reached home at 3am ady~" haha, i think if you saw this, sure you will on fire huh? or maybe you'll kill me? but i don't think you'll saw this xD  okay, whatever~not going to tease you ady~ :PPP
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i don't even know what had happen to me this year. It's end of the year. I'm getting to form 2 next year. What a pity. All in my mind is ACADEMIC ACADEMIC ACADEMIC! It really can drive me insane. Well, what can i do? I'm just a student right? Got to do some preparation during these days. Not to waste too much time otherwise i will be very regretful. Comparing with form 2 form3 form 4 and so on, i better hope i can make through all these years faster, so i can study in university faster. :D
Well, all i have to do is refreshing my mind. And smile :DDD